I don't feel like I have infinite emotion anymore.

Is it age?

Testosterone?

Me?

I feel briefly. Then it passes.

Mostly I'm apathetic.

And hella tired.

lyrics:

I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink,
But now I'm insecure and I care what people think.


We used to play pretend, give each other different names,
We would build a rocket ship and then we'd fly it far away,
Used to dream of outer space but now they're laughing at our face,
Saying, "Wake up, you need to make money."




and


These friends of mine will come and go
I’m the first to leave and last to know
I’ll be swimming in a face of flames
For these friends of mine I’ve overpaid
And I guess I wanted, I guess I wanted
I just want you to know

All of these things made me who I am

seems i retain infinite emotion
i much prefer apathy
complacency
feeling makes me hate myself